not about birthday

Feel glad having the chance to turn 26 last April 12th...Received wishes...gifts..and a surprised party on that day..Not to brag here..I'm not writing about the gifts i've received or what the party was like..Without telling, everyone knows that those kind of things always bring out good feelings from within, it makes you feel happy at that moment of time..

The main things that came to mind and still there are mainly reflections on myself and my surrounding...looking at things...looking at life from various perspectives..looking at death whom i feel visits me everyday..I read somewhere that Malaikat looks at our face 70 times a day..I don't know whether it's true or it's only a myth..I don't care..I still feel the impacts on me..I'm scared thinking that he looks at me most of the time and maybe I would die tomorrow...But I feel even worse knowing that I'll live again the next day and not improving myself even when I'm given the chance to do so..

Sincerely, with whatever that I have around me makes me feel content. I love my parents irregardless of what the histories were...I love my one and only brother even though he always say that he is the only child..I love my grandmothers and not thinking of the biasness one of them had..I love my love together with his strengths and weaknesses..I love my baby boy even though he is fat, lazy and whatever..I love my uncles and extended..I love my friends from kindergarten up to present.. I love all the things I have around me...I love the weather even if it's too hot or too cold..I love developments..I love animals and nature but I SURELY hate people who cut trees...( n not planting back..idiots..)

Not to deny that one who has so much love to share ended up being bullied and stepped on the head without mercy..Feeling helpless..ignoring the fact that he or she does not receive as much love as given makes one feel unwanted and sad..It makes u feel like a piece of trash..But sometimes, it is not as bad as what we imagined..We win some and lose some..and I have learnt that I can't impress everyone..sometimes..no one..

At a point, i really want to settle down and move on to a new phase of life..But still waiting until God permits me to go on the route he has long designed for me...there must be reasons behind it that stop me from embarking my journey on the route..I don't mind..I'll keep waiting..Hope to finish the unfinished business on time so i can move on..I have many things in mind but let me just keep it to myself till the time comes...InsyaAllah..

I'm fine..I'm better..I'm kewl being 26..

Hope to see you again April 12th..love u mucho..