Assalamualaikum cik nah..
Haha..heloo!! i'm back !! haven't been writing for quite sometime kn...mcm2 la hari2...
Being self-employed bukannye senang kn..but deep inside u'll feel happier..Tu je..but mind you..things aren't as easy as you think..but the beauty of it is..you just get to do things you want in your own way.. n..it's addictive actually hehe..bile kite dh sekali being self-employed, you'll be damn lazy to start working..kne gosok baju..pakai baju formal..bla bla bla..sye yg sgt la tak suke formality n tak minat nk bergaye..those things are bothering me.. i just love to be in jeans n plain tshirts :)
Somehow, nak kawen ni..i have to find a steady job at least smpai sume expenses dh settle..Business ok..Alhamdulillah..tp..takla dpt nk spend bnyk sgt...Somehow, it's not a good feeling to have your parents paying things for your marriage..Some people might feel happy and comfortable..tp..sye rase tak besh ar.. So..tulah..finding strengths to start searching for job..but..preferably, not teaching..something something else should be good to motivate me to start working again..*sighh..
Talking about being self employed..i was so happy n satisfied..kalo org putih kate.."self actualization' gitew..hehe.. Of course there are flaws everywhere..but fixing it will give you more strengths and somehow it motivates you to do things even better the next time around..Being in my shoes...it demands creativity and endless efforts..In addition to that, you need help from The All Mighty to grant you those ideas n strengths to keep you going no matter what comes in between..n i'm telling you..it's not that easy..
On top of everything...i always feel blessed and thankful of what God has given me..Those challenges..those critisicm..those looks that people gave you..the husband to be that stands behind you..n the good also the bad feelings that you've experienced in your daily life..Things happen for a reason..n God knows best..
While thinking back and forth..struggling with colourful papers..ribbons..ideas..orders coming in..etc etc..i have decided to expand my knowledge at a higher level.. (^_^). i have submitted the online application n now working on the documents..biasela..mcm2 la die nak..I wish to explore on informal learning and i have talked to a few friends and lecturers on this matter..i just need to do more reading and come out with a strong research proposal.. To be sincere..it's not about the title that you'll get to add before your name..but it's basically wanting to help those who need help..InsyaAllah..hope things will not be as hard..I need your prayers and wishes to help me go through this..when we still have time.. because we never know if there's still tomorrow awaits for us or vice versa...
Take care guys. Talk to you later... :)
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