still searching

Haven't been writing for quite sometime..reasons being, one of it is because i'm still too busy searching..It's a neverending process which has presently claimed to be my favourite 'hobby'. Searching and searching till my mind gets tired and it normally ends with a headache where it feels as if tones of stones are placed on my shoulders that makes my veins feel like blowing up and shutting the whole system down..Somehow, the disaster hasn't strike to its fullest and therefore, i'm still surviving...

Well...Since i've been indulging myself with this 'hobby' for a while and it leads me to no where near my satisfaction in finding the answers, therefore i'm still living to search for it..Life is challenging..No doubt that everybody faces the challenges in different forms and shapes..It's just too tiring for me..

I've already knew it from the beginning..I was not born to be one...It may exist somewhere along the line, but it's not close to my heart..This is just so hard for me till it comes to a point that i've lost my focus in life..I can hardly identify my likes and dislikes..At times, I just feel like dropping off everything and run as far as i could so i would be happy to see tomorrow..

Sad to say..It's still a big question mark and nobody knows when it's gonna come to an end..Only God knows..I pray it won't take the whole of my life searching.. mind you, i'm starting to get tired over this 'hobby' of mine...