cuts

I believe the dr. did his best in making sure that the operation is a success..true enough, i've survived from it..He did more than a few things that supposedly would make me feel better but..i guess the time has not come yet for my organs to work as usual..It's ok..I'm still in the mode of recovering from whatever cuts that lies between my throat, pallet, anak tekak...hidung..tulang hidung..dlm idung and whatever..Never heard the dr. mention about the 'unwanted' where one of my main nerve is happily living on it..Harap2 it shrinks together with the cuts and that would allow me to consume things as normal people do..

Currently i'm living with a few spoons of bubur kosong sekosong2nye because anything that comes with it gonna make me feel as if i'm swallowing tons of stone with the help of kertas pasir in both parts of my throat.. a few sips of air puteh and soya bean are more than enough to fill my stomach the whole day...Buleh kurus ke? hahaha..believe me it doesn't cross my mind to be thin going through all these pain..Sambil adjusting to difficulty in eating and what not..Sambil buat assignment yg xhabes2..I pity both of my group members for delaying things and make all of us suffer more than the expected period of time..Sorry ye nana and pjoy...I promise you, we'll get through all this latest by Wednesday...

Sye sgt2 harap everything will end this semester...Dear readers of my dissertation..I know you are not reading, but I really pray that you'll let me pass and end all my misery...Please be flexible...Please understand that i'm not an expert in SPSS (not even an intermediate level user)..Please...Just please...Let me pass with a grade that will allow me to graduate next november..I demand nothing more than that...I know it's not my best piece of work..But that's the best I can produce at that time..

Well..these days (especially)..I can't do much except for praying and praying and endless of doa that things will be on my side..Just too weak to fight and too tired to think..Having hopes make me feel weak..But that's the best i can do for the time being..May Allah bless us all..